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[02 Oct 2008|02:34am]
[ mood | depressed ]

*dusts off livejournal*

Well it'sbeen a while since my last post, but I guess I should share my thoughts for the evening. Note that I have had 3 beers, enough to loosen up but not enough to be stupid.

Honestly.....

I don't know what to say, the trip to Europe was awesome, but I've had some dread about things at home. That aside, I've been learning things about me every day since I got back, good and bad, which I'm loving. In the last year I keep seeing more and more in me that I've never seen before. I don't even know how to describe this, it's like an adventure in the middle of my normal life. There's alot that I've been very underestimating of myself that I should have seen before. If I could have been like this in high school I would be about 90% different than I am today. I have a few issues that I need to clear up with myself, but with any luck I can clear it up without too much of a problem. We'll see about that though. I.... man, I can't even say it on here but I'll hopefully work everything out into something real and good, for me and hopefully for others as well. Also... Afghanistan, I'm probably going back, 2010, early, can't say much about it yet. I need to go back, I have to go back. I can't avoid it, it's calling me back again. Nobody wants me to go back and I understand why, personally I can't figure out why I'd "roll the dice" again so to speak. There's alot going on too that going back will probably utterly fuck up, I'm not the lifetime president of the C.C.A.B.C for no reason. I guess I'm a total hopeless romantic with too much of a sence of honour and duty that it's affecting my reality, but that's just who I am. I'm a dreamer, which both hold me together and tears me apart. I should really stop here though, if you read this, feel free to ask me what I mean in this post and I'll be happy to explain......

John

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[31 Dec 2007|11:08am]
Time Now: 11:08 am Dec 31 2007

pints finished before the new year: 1

things to do outside the house: 1

bedrooms cleaned: 0

Updates and additions to come.....
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My life in a nutshell [04 Dec 2007|04:26am]
It's 4:30 am......

I just put on Starship Troopers, eating a freshly made Shepards pie and thinking how awesome the NEW Starship Troopers movie is hopefully going to be and secretly whishing I could have been in it.....

Also..... I must find the Starship Troopers game, which is unbelieveably fun......

WHOOO!
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[29 Oct 2007|03:02pm]
goddamnit.....
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and here I lay in my 24th year..... [12 Oct 2007|04:33pm]
Last night was a party that waited 24 years to be unleashed. All I can say is I had a fan-fucking-tastic time. Now I'll take the oppertunity to apologize for any offencive/hurtful things I did while heavily intoxicated. Now that's out the way I can get to the better stuff. Thanks to everyone who came, even if you were just there to see Sandy and couldn't care less about my party. I will let it be known, that there was no "drinkin" on my behalf, only "drankin" occured last night, and like watching a thai hooker pulling razor blades out her whoo whoo everyone in attendance was either awe struck, amazed or disgusted at the nights events.

My tally (from what I can remember)

3 Beers
3-4 Irish Car Bombs
3-4 Shots of Scotch
2 Shot of Jager

Many thanks for the paying of my bill whoever did that, I'll be sure to hunt you down and give you your "payment" for such generosity. In conclusion I hope you all had a great time and drank hard. Gimme some time to recover, we'll do this again round this time next year.
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Uni-T [28 Aug 2007|03:38am]
I think the world would be a much better place if we had more Mr. T

http://youtube.com/watch?v=VwQoV407vJY
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[02 Aug 2007|12:54pm]
http://video.sympatico.msn.com/v/en-ca/v.htm?g=be5b842a-d83b-4140-9c5c-7cbeb720f016&f=37&fg=rss

for those of you who really just want to cus on national news.....
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FIRE! someone get a strobe light! [01 Aug 2007|01:15pm]
So here I am watching CSI: Not the good one, and there's been a fire in one of the examining rooms full of evidence. Buddy runs in to pull some evidence out and hits the fire alarm. Now what got me was as soon as he pulls the fire alarm all the lights start making a strobe light effect...... why?
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haha [30 Jul 2007|07:40pm]
[ mood | frustrated ]

You ever get the feeling that you've just gone and wasted a whole bunch of time doing something?

But hey, I've got a bunch of time to waste I guess, I'll use it as I see fit. As for now though, big things comming up this week that I'm looking hella forward to. Excited for this weeks excursion to BMO field and Kendras cottage. Mix that with plans to sleep and play some new vijeeeeeoh games. Also I bought probably the worst movie ever today, Fantasy Mission Force starring Jackie Chan, probably going to be the best and worst $1.14 I've spent in a while.

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ANIME NORTH PLANS!!!!!!! [22 May 2007|08:50pm]
To everyone going to Anime North listen up!

We gotta decide what is going to go on!

Where to meet, I'd like to be in Toronto by 4pm if possible. Let me know what you guys think is best!
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[12 May 2007|12:02pm]
Current attending list for Anime North

Myself
Sara
Aaron
Stu
Matt

possibles

Willow
Alan
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Anime North [08 May 2007|01:21am]
Dear everyone,

Once again, Anime North is upon us, looming on the horizon like a..... a....... a whatever the hell looms on a horizon. Anyway, I need to start fining out who is interested in going, as I have two hotel rooms booked, I'd like to fill them up so I don't go wasting monies. That being said, as a result of my being a lazy ass for the last couple months I have failed to get anyone pre-registered. As such we shall have to register at the door, it will cost a bit more, but since I'm offering $10 rooms it will break about even from every year. The registration will be $50, add that to the room charge and we have a nice $60 weekend, which evens out, and you won't have to wait in a rediculously long line at the con to register. My apologies for not getting the pre-reg in.

Once I can get a list of who all is going, we can start to figure out arrangments on getting to and from and the like.

Thanks
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Dear Tommy [07 May 2007|12:54am]
You didn't like Spiderman 3......

It's not your fault you're retarded so I won't hold it against you. Granted the whole good charolette/simple plan/I wanna cut myself because I'm a superhuman faggot part detracted from the movie. That being said however, the rest of the movie was great. Topher Grace was a small touch of superb acting, Thomas Haden Church looks exactly the way I'd picture the Sandman to look and well Bruce Campbell speaks for itself. The storyline flowed pretty damn well and the fight scenes were easily as epic, if not more-so at times than the Spidy/Doc Ock subway train fight.

In closing, Tommy, you are so wrong about this movie that it pains me to have to write about it. Hopefully you'll understand.........

Your Pal...

John

p.s what Derek said
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May the fourth be with you.... always [04 May 2007|04:35pm]
I've been waiting for a long time for a day like today. A day I can walk down the street, soak up the sun and just take a breath of fresh air. Everything feels alive today, yes, even me. Anyone wishing to bring down my high may proceed to line 3 and fill out application form 13A, from whence I shall inform you to suck a dick. Enjoy the day everyone.
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For those who've lost hope for humanity [01 Dec 2006|06:25pm]
[ mood | happy ]

It's hard to put into words the feelings I have about people now. It's hard to keep faith in humanity when you see the things that happen in this place, but then you see the good that comes from it. In the 3 months I've been here you begin to see the improvments, people smiling and waving as you drive by is a big thing. But I'm more impressed with the people at home more than anything. I've recieved a couple of care packages in the last couple of days from complete strangers, all filled with random goodies, letters and useful items. To say the least, this is overwhelming. So much so that it brings a smile to my face just thinking about it. Not only are you guys showing (with flying colours) that you really do care, but everyone in ontario is making life here just a little bit better. I don't even know how to say thanks for everything, so I hope the letters I've sent out, not only get there, but I hope this helps as well. I'll re-express my gratitude when I get home, hopefully in the form of a kegger :D.

If there is one quote I live by that can express not only why I want to be here but why I'm so thankful for the support of everyone at home.......

"All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing."
-Edmund Burke

Remember that the job we're doing here has its bad, but one day this country will be a place for people to live and not worry about the opressive people that prey on it every day.

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THAILAND!!!!!! [16 Oct 2006|10:15am]
[ mood | tired ]

Well now that my time in Thailand is wrapping up, I guess I'll tell you all about it.

Bangkok:

The first couple of days in thailand were spent in Bangkok at the Royal River Hotel. Not bad for a decent hotel really. Nice view of the River of Kings that runs through the city. My room, the room of the devil as it were (#666), was pretty comfortable. Granted it lacked the wireless internet they promised so that was a bust and a half. Aside from that not much happened in Bangkok, I was hoping for the guy in the airport to greet us with a "Wercome to Bangkok" followed by a swift slap to the groin. We planned out the rest of our trip, then waited to begin the adventure.

Phuket

The first "real" vacationing took place on the island of Phuket. Towards the south of the country, it supposedly boasts some of the best touristy things to do there. Upon my arrival I rented a personal scooter so I never had to be bothered by the millions of taxi drivers that are out competing for your business. This is where I got my first real taste of the country. Being 2 men travelling Thailand is difficult business. First, finding things to do and second, fighting off the locals. The culture here is interesting but can get bloody annoying. You're being pounded by calls of "Harro, wercome!!!!!!!" from every direction, being beckoned to buy all the fake merch that could be piled to the moon and back. On top of that you have, meal eating places, tailors, massage parlours and the ever famous lady-boys all battling it out for your money. Interesting note, the lady-boys are much easier to point out than people give them credit for, however it's sad when you see some poor soul drinking at a bar with one, absolutely clueless of what he'll be getting into later. Anyways, scooting around the island checking out the elephants, beaches, jungles and the such was pretty awesome, every island is a mountain in it's own right, pretty much jetting out of the water 20 meters up, even if it is only 30 meters around. The food, pretty good, just don't buy street meat, it can't be trusted. Everything is rediculous cheap, but don't let that fool you, it's probably not real either. That being said haggle for everything, even if it IS only 100 baht or $3. 100 baht can usually buy you a full meal, so anything that looks cheap but is costing 200 baht is clearly the merchant trying to screw you out of cash. Checked out some Muay Thai Kickboxing fights, tres cool. Everything from 5 year olds fighting for 6000 baht ($170cdn) to adults fighting for 40,000 baht. Pretty rough stuff too, some pretty good fighters.

Phi Phi Island

This was a little side visit during Phuket, a day trip really. Phi Phi is a small island used for boat tours and such. Great place for snorkeling, swimming and monkies. The snorkeling was super awesome, feeding fish bread and having them swarm you. It was a little short though, only lasting half an hour, since by this point we'd had maybe 3-4 hours of good weather all week. The best part of the trip however was Monkey Beach, and before you ask what Monkey Beach is, it's exactly what the name says.... A beach, with monkies. Best part of the vacation, feeding monkies, flexing my muscles on the beach, getting sunburns, it was great. By the end of the day we ended up on this "fun" island for swimming and games, but the swimming was a bust as the entire beach was covered in coral for about 40 meters into the water. Cut feet and some girl getting "bit" by a sea urchin later we beetled on out and went home.

Koh Phangan

Decent little island I'd say. Only spent 3 days here (one of which on my birthday, oct 9th). Went there for the "New Moon Party" which happens, you guessed it, every new moon. Basically it's a giant beach party with everyone selling "buckets" of booze, mickeys of vodka and redbull going for 300 baht or $8cdn. Pretty sweet deal I'd say. Anyway, the hotel there was junk, ant infested, nothing to do. Only thing making up for it was about $90 of the guests there were english speaking, so we had people to talk to. Nothing fun happened here after the first party night, except for me being attacked by a rather large poisonous spider. Scared shitless I'll admit, I ran from it. You would too though, if you had this giant fuck-off spider sitting 3 feet from you looking like your foot is a good meal. Jerk........

Koh Samui

Bit better of a stay here I guess. Resort was nice, more to do what with the large amount of bars in one area not too far. not much to say about here either though, lots of drinking. Laughing at an american about to get his ass kicked by a rather large group of British men in a pub. Poor bastard would shut up and kept digging a deeper hole, then didn't have enough money to pay for the booze he drank. So John to the rescue paid the last bit of the tab, embarassed the american, made a bunch of friends with the older british gents including the pub owner. For the rest of the night we were free of listening to the americans political views, talking football (For Bryan, an Arsenal, Man U and Liverpool fan all drinking together, picture that) and the booze flowed freely all night. Probably the best night all vacation. I also finally purcahsed a nice suit, found a good guy, checked his work and had it done up, must say it looks nice. Only cost me $180 to boot, good luck finding that in Canada.

Now to Bangkok for the final two days of "fun in the rain". Then back to the A-stan, which will be good for me believe it or not. Been getting super homesick lately, now that I've had time to think about it. Hopefully getting back to the daily routine, steady food and regular sleep will get my mind off home for a while. 3 months should go by pretty quick, then I'll be home and not getting out from under my blanket for 3 weeks adjusting to the cold. Immediately proceeded by epic levels of fun and excitement.

Going to sign off for a bit again, who knows I finally have internet in my room so you may see me on sometime in the next 24 hours. If not I'll be around alot more when I get back to the fight. Thanks for listening kids.


John

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For those of you who want it. [15 Aug 2006|01:18am]
F76 136 861 Cpl Roberts, J
NSE Force Protection Platoon
Task Force Afghanistan National Support Element
P.O Box 5058 Stn Forces
Bellville, On K8N 5W6
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REVISION TO THE PARTY!! [27 Jul 2006|07:03am]
HAWAIIAN T-SHIRTS ARE A MUST IF YOU HAVE ONE!!!!!!
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FRIDAY JULY 28!!!!!! [18 Jul 2006|06:04pm]
[ mood | excited ]

Ladies and Gentlemen!!

A wonderous occaison has been planned and set into motion. Truly an experience not to be missed!

Friday July 28th 2006 is now the set date for none other than the.......

I WANT TO LIVE IN A DESERT FOR 6 MONTHS JUST BECAUSE I CAN!!!!!!!! party.

Celebrations will bein at 3pm sharp!

There will be some god BBQing, a pool and some John Roberts godtimes laid out!

This party wil be BYOB, though if you're lacking in funding, give me a shout and we can organize something.

THIS WIL BE THE LAST CHANCE YOU WIL GET TO CHILL WITH ME BEFORE I RIDE OFF INTO THE WILD BLUE YONDER!!!!!!

That being said, you WILL be at this party, you WILL inform ANYONE who knows me of this party. The following is a list of excuses that WILL be accepted.

-Death in the family
-Death of your persons (yourself)

All else is not a valid excuse and you will face the concequences of your actions

Directions are as follows:

324 Monica Cres.

-Heading towards the lake on Walkers Line, turn RIGHT onto Spruce
-Take the first right onto Swinburne
-The first street on the left willbe Monica Cres.
-324 willbe the 4th house on the left


Hope to see everyone there

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How to save a life (sorry for the long rant, but please feel free to read) [13 Jul 2006|02:04am]
Tonight is the first night that it's really sunk in that in 4 weeks, I'll be half way around the world. On top of that, one of the most dangerous places in the world to boot. To be honest, I've always had an over active imagination, and I always pictured myself going to fight a war, become a hero and all that jazz. Now that I'm going overseas to a foreign country to fight, it's so much different than I imagined. I'm not going to be a hero, and I'd most certainly like to never have to fire a shot at anyone if possible. One of the things that worries me most, is not getting killed or severely injured, but how I'll act when the time come to fight. I'm afraid I'll cower and hide and one of my friends will get hurt because of it. Since I started training for this, it's become less about me and more about my friends. One of my good friends is proposing to his girlfriend, one just had a lovely baby girl. If they got hurt because of me, I couldn't forgive myself for letting it happen. Everyone has their reason for going, both selfish and selfless. I'm no different. This is the biggest test of character I've ever faced in my life. I can't decide if what I'm doing is right or not, to say it's all about the money is a lie, the money will help me out alot getting my life on track which is a bonus. It's more than that though, I believe in the mission and would willing take time out of my life for it (I'm not saying I'd die for it, becuase I fully intend to come home). I believe that the people there deserve a better life than what alot of them have.

I like to think that it's my lot in life to give my life to keep all that I love safe. I'd willingly give my life in exchange for those of my friends and family, because they are my pillars of strength. Everyone who's been nice enough to tolerate me, from Darren who's as much a brother to me as my own blood, to kelly, Jimmy, Lauren, Jordan, and Stu Morrison who I don't see for months at a time. I feel kinda stupid thinking that going overseas is the closest thing I have to keeping what I love safe, by helping to rid the world of those who harm others through cowardly attacks like those in New York, London and all over the world.

More than anything though I feel bad about the stress I'm putting on my family, especially my mother who I credit with making me what I am today. It's tearing at me because the second I feel good about what I'm doing, I immediately feel bad about it when I think of my mom. I guess I could seek out some guidance about this but I don't know who I can talk to who will give me fair and neuteral judgement.

Maybe this is something I have to face on my own. All I really know right now is the ball is rolling, the time is counting down and my life is going to change. For better or for worse I'll have to stand up to my worst fear. Take the good with the bad, and deal with the hardships that will undoubtedly come my way.

All I can really ask is for the full support of my friends and family. Without you guys I'm nothing.

sorry about the long rant, I had to vent and this was the only way I could think of.
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